Monday, May 31, 2010

Sunday, May 30, 2010

acceptance

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- There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout..

- This is me..I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package..

- Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away!

- Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold..

- If I need to change, I alone will make that decision..
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Saturday, May 29, 2010

unexpected..

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Friday:

- bus from I.C to rashidya..

- Train from rashidya to al rigga station

- went to this authentic shawarma resto.. food is cheap and delicious..

- wejdan cafe and resto it's actually near the clock tower..

- then from al rigga station to burjaman..

- gimik punta kami C.G

- waiting.. waiting.. waiting.. I don't want to keep on waiting..

- i waited in a indian fruit juice store...

- after i finish my watermelon shake.. i decided to go home..

- i got mad for waiting.. and went to the bus station..

- mas malamig dun kaya dun ako nag stay..

- best texted ppnta na daw sya C.G

- ayun nag punta kami C.G.. around 3:00A.M uwian na..


Saturday:

- breakfast with best..

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Thursday, May 27, 2010

happy


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- no more internet connection for the concierge and control room department.. FCUK!! oh well.. i still have my BB.. buti na lang we still have free wireless connection sa office..

- daming guest today.. last guest went home around 12:20midnight..

- waiting for the 1:15A.M bus.. shawarma again :)

- pag dating sa bahay..kinuha ko lang damit, laptop, pati na din apple and grapes ko sa ref... mabubulok na lang di ko pa nakakain..

- slept over kela best..

- tom. is my off.. tulog kami around 5:00A.M :) HAPPY!!

"Na miss ko na si scrappy..I posted something that reminds me of him.. pag pinapaliguan ko sya..nakakatuwa sya.. floppy looking to skinny"
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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

occupied my wednesday..

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Tue:

- woke up early around 9:00A.M

- i missed the bus goint to the office.. and it cost me 41DHS.. in peso it's like 450pesos..!!! Badtrip!! siguro 1 or 2 minutes early yung clock ng bus that time. fcuk talaga... pero okay lang.. wala na ako magagawa.. But it wont happen again..

- paratha bread + chicken curry for dinner..

Wed:


- spanish omelet for breakfast..


- a little tour around diera..
















- restday ni best today and he wants to watch a movie.. so we did..

- 11:45 last full show.. after work diretso ako dubai mall.. :)


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Monday, May 24, 2010

move oN!!

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- hindi ako okay.. but tomorrow i will be okay...

- if not maybe the day after tomorrow!!

- galit ako kay best! selfish b ako? mali ba yung mga advices ko sa kanya?

- madali lang ba sabihin para sakin na mag move-on kasi wala ako sa katayuan nya?

- alam ko masakit yung hiwalayan.. pero kung wala naman kwenta yung tao hindi na mahirap yun.. lalo na pag pinaramdam nya na bale wala ka lang..

- yung relasyon ko nga di ko maayos

- feeling ko ako na lang ang may gusto mag work out.. napapagod na din ako..

- nag sabay pa sa problem ng bestfriend ko.. naasar ako!!! naasar talaga ako!!!

- BAKIT KA MAG MAMAHAL NG TAONG WALANG KWENTA!! AT TINGIN SAYO EH DISPOSABLE LANG NA GAMIT!!

- hindi ako sanay mag utos kung ano dapat gawin sa mga naging partner ko.. bakit? hindi ko makita rason eh.. ginagawa nya lang yung dahil sinabi ko.. hindi dahil gusto nya.. at nagiging masaya sya dun.. nahihirapan na din ako..
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Sunday, May 23, 2010

fruity sunday

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- 4:00P.M to 1:00A.M is my shift today..

- if there is no dinner reservation, i'll go home around 11:00P.M.. yey!

- apple and orange for breakfast and oatmeal with strawberries...

- starting to do a healthy diet.. 4 sets for 10 push ups and sit ups..

- went home early.. jog again..

- 11:30P.M and i decided to drop by to my bestfriend's house just to check him..

- they finally break-up..

- 2:00A.M i'm walking back to our accomodation..
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Saturday, May 22, 2010

swimming '10



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Friday:

- swimming with my officemates..

- they cooked liempo..kilawin..papaitan..fried chicken..

- pancit canton.. sarap!!

- i still feel no concern from "B"..

- maybe nag aadjust pa..give more time or days pa..


Saturday:

- 4:00P.M - 10:00P.M is my shift..

- went home.. jog for almost 20 mins - alone..
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Thursday, May 20, 2010

YES! I DO!

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- i hope things will go back to normal...
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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

something new

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(it was my first time..)

- to visit M.O.E - Mall of Emirates


- Ski Dubai Snow Park


- to rode the metro train.. yehey!!


- finally!! i saw and bought a black rubber case for my mobile..


- the gate - DIFC


- emirates tower - in front of our office..

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Tuesday, May 18, 2010

straighten out

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- i woke up this morning feeling better..

- slept around 1:00A.M, set up my alarm around 6:45A.M

- got oatmeal for breakfast..

- the indian office bus driver.. is playing tagalog song's.. G.V

- optimistic for today.. no more drama.. basta happy ako kung ano ginagawa ko today.. I put no pressure sa aming ni "B".. kung ano man maging outcome, I know it's good for both of us..

- and then ayun i texted "B".. na i'm ready to talk kung ready na din sya..

- by the time na ka chat ko sya.. may dumating naman na guest.. so di ko na din sya nakachat ng maayos..

- then nag text sya.. nag send daw sya ng message sa FB ko..wag daw mainit ulo ko and basahin ko daw ng maigi..

- binasa ko naman, ayun okay naman masaya ako.. for the whole day masaya ako hangang hapon.. with high hopes na magkakaayos kami.. at may chance pa kami ulit..

- I told "B".. 'I love you'.. and nag thank you ako dahil gusto padin nya na maayos kami..send ako sa phone nya message using chikka.. and iisip ko bakit parang cold p din sya.. sabi ko baka wala lang load kaya walang text back.. okay lang.. basta makakpag usap ulit kami bukas at okay na lalo..

- then 10:25P.M here binasa ko ulit ung message nya.. at may na miss akong line sa message nya... eto yun..

"if talagang tayo till dumating december tayo.. at dun tau mag start..."
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Monday, May 17, 2010

2nd chance..


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- i'm scared for tomorrow.. i'm here sa office now.. hindi ko alam mangyayari bukas..

- lastnight kausap ko si best 'coz i'm trying to do my role sa buhay nya..

- "to be there for him"..

- ang hirap kasi ng iwanan ka sa ere ng taong mahal mo.. or yung pakiramdam na wala sya kung kailan mo sya kailangan...

- sa buhay ng tao dumarating naman talaga yun eh.. yung parang lahat na ata ng problema sa buhay nag kasabay-sabay..

- love-life pati family..hirap pag nag-sabay ang problem na yan..

- anyway yun nga.. kausap ko sya kagabi.. tapos nag usap kami about positive stuff na pwede namin gawin.. like magusap kami na paunahan kaming mag papayat.. tapos kung sino manalo sya manglilibre sa ticket ni Vice Ganda sa first week ng june..

- ayun.. nag format sya ng BB nya last night.. ako naman enjoy pa din sa bagong BB ko.. medyo nakakalimutan ko na yung ngyari samin ni "B"..tangap ko na wala na wala na syang pake-alam sakin.. di na naman sya nag t-text.. at based naman sa mga status nya sa F.B puro move on na...

- oo, hindi maayos yung huling usap namin.. hindi ko ni expect na ganun yung mangyayari sa usap namin.. as much as possible ayoko makita yung mga message nya sa inbox ko.. yung mga message na ni send nya sakin nung nagalit sya..

- until..sabi ni best.. yung status message ni "B" sa facebook..

- natuwa ako sa sinabi nya.. parang tumalon yung puso ko sa tuwa..

- pero ngayon natatakot ako.. ewan ko..hindi ko alam kung tama yung ginawa ko..
hmm.. ni message ko sya..nag text ako sa knya.. wala akong nakuha.. tapos nung hapon ayun.. usap daw kami bukas.. i told na miss ko na sya.. but wala nman sya sinabi na ganun din nararamdaman nya.. sabi lang nya mag usap kami bukas..

- nung time na huling nag usap kami.. sumama loob ko.. ayoko maramdaman ulit yun.. maririning ko nnman na ksalanan ko..wala akong trust.. paranoid ako..

- sa totoo lang, hindi nman ako ganun.. ewan ko ba.. natakot lang ako kasi ilang beses na tong failed relationship ko.. karma ko na nga siguro sa mga hindi ko sineryso nun..

- masarap yung feeling na in love..yung taong nag papasaya sayo.. yung taong kahit na maliit na bagay sau nappreciate nya.. yung tangap nya yung pangit sayo.. and will will never judge you..

- mag like sa mga status mo sa facebook.. hehehehe pati mag comment kahit walang sense yung sinabi mo.. or mag text kung asan sya.. na kahit busy sya naiisip ka nya..
yakapin ka sa gabi habang natutulog ka.. yung mag save ng picture sa phone nya.. para pag na miss ka nya.. titignan lang nya.. yung mag papaalala ng schedule mo sa work.. buti na lang walang tao dito sa reception.. hehehe gabi na kasi.. pwede umiyak.........

:(

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Sunday, May 16, 2010

time will come..



If everything was everything but everything is over
Everything could be everything if only we were older
I guess it's just a silly song about you
And how i lost you and your brown eyes


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- it is your right to speak out and be heard..

- your opinion in your relationship should be as important as his/her opinion..

- in order for the relationship to work out both should be equal to attend each other needs..

- kailangan pakinggan ang side mo, dahil kung hindi.. parang pinaramdan nya na din sayo na hindi importante ang feelings mo..

- normal ang mag selos, siguro pati na din ang maging paranoid minsan..

- pati na ang mag away.. hindi naman maiwasan yun..

- pero dapat may respeto pa din sa partner mo..

- sabi nga nga kasama ko sa work.. "love is a crazy thing.. sometimes you fight a lot.. which makes the relationship become more mature and for each of you to be a better person.."

05/16/10 - the next month is your special day.. or could be our special day..
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Saturday, May 15, 2010

crazy day

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- natulog ako kela best..

- whole day lang ako sa room and updating my BlackBerry..

- enjoying my new "B".. haha

- supposed to be wala akong pasok today.. as far as I know.. I checked my sked and off ko sat.. but around 5:00P.M..the control room guy called me and nobody is in receotion daw..

- they changed the sked.. and didn't send the email copy of the revised schedule..

- 40 AED taxi ppunta office.. fuck!!!

- K and B are now friends .. or should i say cousin's again.. hahaha uuuyyy bagay hahahha.:)
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Friday, May 14, 2010

gOOD morning!!!

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- thanks best for the wonderful night!! :)

- looking for tattoo designs :) YEH!!

- burger for lunch..

- bought my first blackberry phone

- best is not feeling okay.. dedma xtian.. need time to be alone daw..

- alone -m.G.F?


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Thursday, May 13, 2010

misunderstood..

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- friend vs. partner -

Monday:

stress itong araw na ito for me.. but the good thing nakapag usap kami bi "B" at na settle yung mga issue namin.. naalala ko pa nga na sinabi nya na mas okay yung nag-sasabihan kami ng mga sama ng loob.. which i totally agreed.. sarap ng feeling nun, kasi parang lalo tumibay yung relasyon namin.. tapos na work nya kaya umuwi na siya.. (4hrs ahead ang pinas from dubai).. pag uwi ko galing work.. nag bihis, toothbrush and ready to sleep na.. pero sympre mag facebook muna ako..I'm playing this "night club city", bagong game sa facebook..

then may nag chat popup.. si "J".. (isa sa medyo issue namin).. 12:35 A.M na sa pinas nun.. madaling araw na.. hindi ko naman kasi ni check kung sino nag online.. basta naglalaro lang ako.. ayun.. sa napag usapan namin.. hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit iba yung sinasabi nitong "J". isa lang naman gusto ko malaman.. kung nag usap ba sila ni "B" tungkol dun sa first fight namin.. pero iba sinabi nya.. like wala daw silang pinag-uusapan personal tungkol samin at napapansin ko na ang tagal nya mag reply.. at parang hindi nya alam ang isasagot ko sa tanong ko.. para ngang may kinakausap pa.. ang tagal sumagot.. simpleng tanong lang..

..Teka... sino ba si "J"..

..paano ba sya naging topic at issue namin ni "B"..??

matagal ko ng kilala si "J".. pero matagal na hindi kami nakakapag-usap or kamustahan.. bigla na lang natigil..friendster pa lang un uso nun.. parang silent war, yun lang.. hindi naman kami nag away or anything.. until a month ago or so, nag pa-add sa facebook.. okay.. nag kamustahan lang ulit.. ganun.. Pero wala akong nakwento about samin ni "B".. alam nya may partner ako na nasa pinas.. that's it.. wala akong ni kkwento sa kanya.. minsan nga nag lalaro pa kami scrabble.. yun lang.. walang anything about my lovelife or personal life..

isang araw nagulat na lang ako at mag ka friends sila sa facebook.. nakita ko kasi sa wall updates nung hmm MAY 8... nag like si "B" sa status ni "J"..sabi ko sa sarili ko.. oh mag friends pala sila.. okay..

then tinanong ko si "B" matagal mo syang kilala? hindi daw...

(sila ni "B" like a month or so lang sila nagka-kilala..dahil sa facebook.. nakapag-usap na daw sila sa chat before.. kay "J" daw sya nag confide nung first away namin.. at kay "J" daw sya humingi ng advice nung mga time na yun) okay..

so ayun nga. balik sa kwento ko.. nag tataka lang ako bakit sa tagal ng mag ka facebook kami ni "J" eh wala syang kinukwento na kilala nya pala partner ko.. tapos sinabi pa nya na wala daw silang pinag usapan ni "B" about sa personal na away namin before.. hmm bakit ganun? parang magulo.. ano bang gustong gawin ni "J"?? may pinaplano b itong masama??

ginawa ko.. copy and ni-send ko sa facebook ni "B" ung full chat conversation namin ni "J".. kung paano nya ni deny yung fact na yun.. tapos natulog na ako..

Tuesday:

sakit ng ulo ko pag gising ko, inom ako ng gamot.. check ko phone ko may dalawang message from "B".. kakain n daw sya.. lunch time kasi sa pinas.. ako naman nakatulog ulit dahil sa gamot na ininom ko.. muntik na akong ma-late sa work ko.. ayun pag dating ko sa work.. excited pa ako check facebook ko at pag check ko ng inbox.. galit na si "B" sakin.. wala daw akong tiwala sa kanya.. etc..etc.. in-short nakipag break na sya sakin.. una.. natulala ako.. hindi ko alam kung ano rereact ko.. nasa hospitality side yung work ko.. Kailangan ko mag smile sa mga tao dito.. hindi ako makaiayak.. parang biglang sumakit ulo ko.. napaupo ako.. napatingin sa malayo.. nung time na yun.. dun pa ako sa reception na walang computer.. phone ko lang gamit ko para mag facebook.. shit! ang haba ng sinabi nya.. daming sinabi against me.. sa last message nya sabi nya burahin ko na daw sya sa facebook ko..

which i did.. sa sobrang galit ko.. pati si "J"..

Wednesday:

walang text or message from you.. hindi ako mapakali.. parang may kulang sa lahat ng ginagwa ko sa office.. ayoko muna ipaalam sa friends ko.. pero ayun nag change status ako sa facebook.. lalabas pala sa update.. hooray! tanga lang.. sabi ko naman sa sarili ko.. bakit ko naman tatago pa.. hmm iniisip ko pa din kung mali yung ginawa ko.. asar ako kasi nakipag break sa facebook.. nag send lang ng message.. eh hindi ko naman sya ka chat. okay nga siguro kung ka chat pa.. i think breaking up with someone ay dapat pinag uusapan at parehas kayo nag decided na ganun na lang.. at bakit ganun agad decision nya?? naasar sya kasi feeling daw nya wala akong tiwala sa kanya.. well ewan ko sa knya.. tulala pa din ako.. dami pumapasok sa isip ko.. hindi ako makatulog.. sabi nila pag hindi ka daw makatulog sa ginawa mong decision meaning daw nun eh, hindi daw tama yung decision.. hindi ako makatulog kasi wala na sya....

Thursday:

sakto lang gising ko.. 10:15A.M alis ng bus.. so 9:30A.M ako nagising sa alarm.. ewan ko pero okay naman gising ko.. kain akong tinapay and soya milk.. tapos naligo at nagbihis.. mga 10:00A.M tumawag yung officemate ko sa phone ko.. 1:00P.M na daw ako pumasok.. Wow.. sana tumawag sya ng mas maaga... grrr..anyway okay lang.. ayun open ko computer ko at pag bukas ko ng message ko sa facebook.. nag mesage si "B"..

nag usap kami sa ym.. yun nga, nag usap kami about kay "J".. sinabi nya na tinawagan sya ni "J" ng madaling araw around 2:00AM nung monday dahil nga daw ka chat nya ako at nangungulit daw akong alamin kung ano meron sa kanila or kung meron bang something sa kanila.. tanong daw ako ng tanong.. WHAT!!!!! uminit ulo ko..

GGGGRRRRR!!!! tumayo ako at tinodo ko yung aircon!! tapos nag-chat ulit kami.. wala daw akong tiwala. blah blah.. blahh blaahh. wala naman daw silang something ni "J".. at nag usap lang naman daw sila sa "Phone" before dahil nga confide lang sya kay "J" nung first away namin... another WHHHHAAATTTT!!!! nag usap sa phone??? kala ko chat lang kayo nag usap dati? so sa phone pala sila nag usap.. okay.. erase the fact na sa phone sila nag usap.. pero yung tumawag si "J" ng madaling araw kasi ka chat ko sya at nag tatanong ako kung nag usap ba sila ni "B" tungkol dun sa first fight namin??.. EH BAKIT?? bakit pa sya tumawag ng 2:00A.M? at bakit kailangan pang tumawag?? ang gulo.. so tama pala.. kaya pala ang tagal ni "J" sumagot nung ka chat ko sya.. tinawagan pala nya si "B".. para lang sa tanong ko??

may mali ba sa tinatanong ko??

CALL a FRIEND ba yung ginawa nya?

hindi naman sya mananalo ng 1 MILLION sa question ko ah..

EHH.. bakit ba?..

ano ba meron sa first fight namin ni "B"??

well?? just to make a conversation lang.. open up a topic.. of course gusto ko din malaman kung bakit hindi na-kwento sakin ni "J" na nag confide partner ko sa kanya before.. at bakit hindi nya sinabi sakin kilala nya pala partner ko.. at ano ni advice nya that time.. naging part ba yung advice nya kung bakit naging okay ulit kami ni "B"?? sympre gusto ko naman mag thank you sa kanya.. di ba?? ikaw ba hindi k ba mag t-thank you sa taong nag-aadvise sa partner mo?..


- "B" i just want to say that your status for this day "its over.... final.." someone like it....

- "J" likes this..

went from being "engaged" to "single."

- "J" likes this..

- yeh lovin it as well. enjoy!
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010

speechless


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- i miss you.. i'm sad..

- i check my phone like i used to..

- expecting for SMS update about you.. or your whereabout..
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I'm taken no more!

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- time check: 8:30 A.M

- woke up two hours early before the alarm clock with my head spinning..

- checked my phone and i got two SMS from you.. just the normal SMS informing me that you'll be taking your lunch..

- took two tabs of (panadol)for my headache, then go to bed again...

- as i checked the time, i only got 6 minutes left before the company bus depart in front of our building

- luckily, i still have time to gargle, change my undies and clothes..

- almost 30 minutes of travel going to work...


- time check: 11:20 A.M

- one of my regular routine is to connect my mobile to the office's wi-fi connection..

- checked my facebook and read your message..

- or should i say your "break up message".. yeh how amazing!!! my long distance relationship is over... these days everything is done online..

- where is my chance to explain? i sent you a message last night, about my full conversation with this guy, what he is saying is contradictory to what you've said to me..

- break up with someone on F.B, i think anybody who does that is a coward. does not deserve to be with someone else because he/she is not mature enough.. Grow up!...

- you wanted me to delete you right?.. it's my pleasure..
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Monday, May 10, 2010

LDR

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- i'm alone in the front desk today.. my boss is in vacation.. 2 concierge are on fire drill training..

- DIFC security came.. not one of thing's i wanna encounter while i'm alone in the front desk.. Wuah.. sana may mag appear na eject button sa harap ko...
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Sunday, May 9, 2010

happy MAMA's day...


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- it's been 4 months since i left manila..

- hindi naman ito yung first time na nalayo ako sa kanila...

- pero mukhang ito ung magiging pinaka-matagal..
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Saturday, May 8, 2010

letting go

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"i saw you and heard your voice again...."
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Friday, May 7, 2010

mémoires



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- missing tita baby and tin2x..

- it's my off..

- woke up 4:30P.M, went to my bestfriend's house tambay lang...

- after an hour xtian dropped by and we went to bur dubai..

- it's almost 7:00P.M.. tortang giniling + sinigang na hipon for dinner..

- then we went out to canvas for the cheapest cost of Sony Ericson-X2.. (1700 AED)

- SE-X2 or Blackberry?.. aww...

- baskin robbins smoothie + sitting on coin-operated massage chair.. such a good break..

- then 3 of us went back to International city.. xtian brought his 2-old laptop + wireless modem/router (for me to fix)..

- brian(Best roommate) was there when we came back..

- i fixed the wireless modem/router..(Yehey! wireless connection is back)

(( hay's sumakit ulo ko dun.. cause the wireless modem/router requires you to have a phone jack port.. meron lang silang 3-LAN ports.. So what i did is connect the LAN cable to the LAN1 port of the wireless modem/router.. (This will work.. but it will disable the routing function of the device..) In layman's term - wireless modem lang labas nun.. grr sakin sa ulo.. ))

- hmm. my laptop and xtian's laptop are connected wirelessly but brian's laptop can't connect.. changed/remove the security for the wireless modem but nothing is working.. GRRR.. Di ko pa din alam kung bakit..

- there are 3-LAN ports , 1-connected to the wireless modem, 2-connected to best's laptop, 3-connected to brian's laptop.....

- anyway....

- 2-old laptop, One is HP and the other is Acer..

- HP is still booting up, the only problem is the drivers.. updated/installed the drivers successfully!!!

- when i tried to connect it wirelessly.. GRR. not working! it can see the SSID.. tried WEP/WPA even no security but it doesn't work.. grrr... ok fine i gave up... connect ko n lang using LAN cable.. HOly COw!!! ayaw din.. huhuhuhu.. i tried diffent LAN cable.. wuahh!! ayaw pa din...
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010

IRONMAN 2

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- watched ironman2 with best.. our first time to watch a movie together in the dubai mall..

- approved my stepmom facebook request... so weird.. but it's fun..

- my mom doesn't have one yet...
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Tuesday, May 4, 2010

he ate my heart

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I wanna Just Dance
But he took me home instead
Uh oh! There was a monster in my bed
We french kissed on a subway train
tore my clothes right off
He ate my heart then he ate my brain

white lie, everybody does it cause it feels alright and it's more polite, but a lie still a lie even when it's white
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-Monster -

Monday, May 3, 2010

苦痛が行く時

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真実は来る, 私の夏愛

安东尼爱布赖恩

http://babelfish.yahoo.com/translate_txt
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Sunday, May 2, 2010

couz my ass..

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- yes! you have the same last-name but it doesn't mean his your cousin..

- 'coz that's what you said last time.. you are not related to each other..
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Saturday, May 1, 2010

bye, bye april

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- hello May...

- slept around 10:30AM,usap lang kami ng beb ko, gising ako around 7:30PM.. 'coz tumawag si best regarding sa naked guy na ni-tag sa facebook ko.hahahaha.

- 2nd day of night shift, nilagang baka + pritong tilapya for dinner prepared by goef.. tsarap!..

- shot muna red horse bago pumasok..hehe

- 10:36PM - listening to GLEE - The power of madonna album and lady gaga - The Fame Monster album! playing farmville, cafe world.. scrabble anyone?hehehehe

- watched Clash of the Titans (1981) the myth of Perseus and his quest to battle both Medusa and the Kraken monster to save Princess Andromeda..
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